Friday, August 28, 2015

Dating in your 40's

I find dating in my 40s similar to dating in my 20s and 30s instead of meeting men in bars who wreck of alcohol I meet men on the internet. Holy shit what a different world some of these people come from... Especially me!!!
Internet dating can be divided into categories: 
men/women who genuinely want to b in a relationship 
Men/women checking out the concept of Internet dating- if they get s date great if not oh well
Men/women who troll - they typicAlly stay on the site forever- looking for sex, money, status, etc
Desperado- less attractive people who have not been lucky in love because of... Well just because.... 
I met an amazing man or so I thought... Joe! Actually he is a good man- we had fun together- he was free- me allowed me to be free.... Just one problem- the wife he no longer wanted to be married to... Getting rid of her was no easy task... Joe and I battled over her, laughed about her lack of pride, and even felt sorry for her... Nonetheless Joe was a good man!!! LOVED and still love his mother- beautiful person!!! 
Dr Dick- what a character- he described himself as a healer and I believe he is a healer!! He is an actual doctor of internal medicine. He happens to be the smartest person I have ever met... He can be fun, giving, funny, free, and kind... But Dick has a dark side- he's petty, scared, mean, and selfish!! 
I don't regret anything that happened in Savannah, GA. I'm thankful I didn't have to ride home with him..I'm also thankful he's no longer a part of my life. I don't want someone to be cruel to me, because they don't get their way... Oh I forgot to mention he's not a child-he's 60 something years old and acts like a spoiled brat. 
I forgave him when I probably shouldn't- in the past I would've tortured him the way a cat does a mouse or Frankie tortures lizards... After having cancer things changed--controlling another person doesn't have the same appeal in once did!!! 
Irony: Knoxville sucked with him.. Best part of the trip- the ride home with a complete stranger (who by the way- began calling and asking me out-asking me to meet him in Asheville- lmao) Savannah best part of the trip--the look on his face while we were standing at the door!!! I can't elaborate because I don't want to incriminate myself.. I still chuckle at his expression!!! He was very confused when he thought he could once again be a fucking dick to me... Not this time sweetpea!! I arrived home at 8:00 am thanking God that Rabdy Silverstine would no longer be in my life......
Warning to all women dating in their 40s... Never give in!!!! Be polite-never be a pushover-look your best-never ever give yourself freely and quickly-and always see the light!!! Lol and never try and get between a man and his lover a camel.... Lol





Saturday, August 8, 2015

Addicts

The chaos is not only external; such as, inability to maintain  a relationship, codependency, showing up late, or not at all. The real chaos is internal-?can you imagine what rums through an addicts mind when they lay their head on the pillow. 


Monday, July 13, 2015

A lot has happened in a year

1. I love my beautiful daughter more today than yesterday 
2. I filed for legal separation
3. I totally removed ed from my life
4. I met an amazing man, Joe! Oops Joe is no longer in the picture -- joe is back in the picture 
5. I met Greg instantly fell for him- I acted like a bitch when he did something so kind for me...?wtf is wrong with me!! So Greg is now gone- it makes me sad 
6. Michael called today - sounds interesting--- think he's one of those, ." Wanna go back to my place" I'm gonna name the guys The Fuckers"!their mission is to get laid !! They are kinda fun to mess with... Sometimes I don't even bother,... 
7. Insanity went on in Wilmington and holy shit!!!!!  Let me say it again HOLY SHIT
Let's save that story for another day